Another Bump in the Road

It has been a while since my last update, and honestly I have been feeling totally and completely defeated.  During our original vist to the RE, Dr. Kevin identified a cyst on my left ovary.  He scheduled an appointment three weeks out and let us know that most cysts are a result of failed ovulation and most often resolve themselves.  Unfortunately, at our follow up appointment last week, we found out my cyst had not grown, which is good, but it also is not any smaller which is VERY bad.  It was beyond obvious that he was totally surprised.  My cyst is just over 5 cm (blueberry sized), which I thought seemed small, but on an almond sized ovary makes it a little scarier.

We go back for an additional follow up appointment on July 15. If no progress has been made, I will need to have it surgically removed, which adds additional months to our timeline and quite frankly breaks my heart.  I anticipated that this journey would not be seamless, but putting treatment on hold after already trying for 566 days, is beyond frustrating.

However, enough of my negativity, at least we have an action plan and we still have the hope of success, which is a blessing in itself as I know many couples would gladly trade places. So, our journey continues, one day at a time.

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We have started taking selfies in the car each time we visit the RE’s office.

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My First Infertility Melt Down

We had our second appointment with the Reproductive Endrocinologist last Friday for the dreaded HSG test.  For those of you who are not familiar, this is a test where dye is inserted into your uterus and pumped into your Fallopian tubes, followed by a series of X Rays, to insure your tubes are open and the sperm can reach the egg.  As with most things, I like to feel well prepared in  advance, so I did the absolute worse thing I could do…I googled it!  I can’t even describe to you the horrific stories and experiences I read about!!!

Needless to say, when I arrived at the doctor’s offices I was a nervous wreck. The nurse tried to comfort me and Eric worked his best to provide support.  When Dr. Kevin arrived to preform the procedure, he also provided me a needed lecture on why I should not be reading online and then got right to it.  I literally felt the tiniest pinch of the needle numbing my cervix, which felt more like a mosquito bite and nothing else.  I braced myself for the dye, but when I asked him how long it would take, he slid his chair out and said he was finished.  Literally I felt NOTHING!!!

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So for all you ladies, prepping for this test and scouring the web for more info about the HSG test …here it is, take aways from my HSG experience. 1) My tubes are 100% clear. 2)A good doctor is worth every penny.  3) Surrender your iPad to your husband before any future medical procedures!!!

 

Strawberry Scones

As always, I am always on the hunt for new brunch reciepes. Que Pintrest!  This takes about 40 minutes total time, so great for weekend guests.

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Flatware // Indigo Dyed Napkins old (similar here)

What you will Need:

1 cup Flour

1/8 cup Sugar

1& 1/4 teaspoon Baking Powder

1/4 teaspoon Salt

1/2 Stick of Butter

1/2 cup Heavy Whipping Cream

1 Egg

2 cups Strawberries

Directions:

Mix flour, sugar, baking soda & salt in mixing bowl.  Cut butter into 5 equal parts.

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Mixing Bowl

Add butter and dry mixture to stand mixing bowl.  Beat on high until finely grated.  Add the heavy whipping cream and mix on high for 2 minutes or until dough clumps and thickens.  Remove dough onto floured surface and roll into a ball.  Pat dough down to a 1 inch thick cylinder and cut into 4 equal pieces.

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Place on to paper lined baking sheet spread & 2 inches apart. In a separate bowl, beat egg and brush the tops & sides of the scones.  Sprinkle with sugar on the top.  Bake on 425 degrees for 14-15 minutes.  While in the oven, cut strawberries for topping.

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Colander // Farm Sink

Let scones cool for 10 minutes. Garnish with strawberries, whipped cream & serve!

Summer Heat & Sassy Feet

My personal go to summer uniform is typically some type of T-shirt dress.  Considering I live in Texas, the heat can get pretty unbearable and these are cool, easy to throw on over a swimsuit and no effort required, making it the perfect outfit choice. I don’t really accessorize them, due to the simple nature of the dress, but I do like to add some sassy yet practical footwear!  I have rounded up my favorite summer sandal picks…ENJOY!!!

Scalloped Sandal // Leopard Sandal // Tassel Sandal // Fringe Sandal

1 in 8

Infertility affects one in eight couple trying to conceive…hello, I am part of the one!  Where to begin?  I never saw myself as the nurturing type and was not overly concerned with babies or starting a family until around my 28th birthday, and boom it hit.  It was like someone flipped a switch inside and it began to consume my thoughts.  Of course, being a planner by nature, I began getting all my ducks in line to present the best possible environment, financial situation and home to welcome baby.  You can read about it here .  Obviously, it has not gone to plan.  June 1st marked 18 months of no success, and June 2nd marked our first visit to the Reproductive Endrologist.

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Dress (currently 40% off)

Talk about nerves!!!  Blood test, dye tests, DNA analysis, sonograms, etc.  The hunt is certainly on and I had no idea the emotional toll or financial implications of all the testing before we even begin our actual treatment plan.  I have 3 more tests before our next appointment on June 23, where hopefully we will receive a diagnosis and firm treatment plan.

Along the way, we started collecting children’s books with written sentiments inside, so our children will know they were loved and prayed for before they were in existence.

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I plan to document our journey, the medical jargon, emotional outburst, etc. There is comfort in numbers, so instead of being 1 in 8, I like to think of myself as part of the 39.87 million people affected by infertility in American.

Remaining Hopeful!